To Blog or Not To Blog

I have recently been considering taking my blog down.

The reason I started this blog is when I first started on the journey of discovering the White Tigress teachings, I wanted to have a diary of my experiences. During the time when I was desperately searching for someone to teach me, I was also thinking about how appreciative I would have been if I had come across the journal or experiences of another Tigress. Therefore, I started this blog - both as a record for myself of what I have been through but also to share with others.

Recently, however, I have been considering taking my blog down because I understand that many of the Tigress teachings are still secretive and confidential, and I don't want to want to unintentionally reveal more than what is already publicly available. I also don't want to disappoint my teacher or have any trust that is placed in me broken.

So, that is my current dilemma - to keep my blog or to take it down??

I am still not sure. 

Charity and Gratitude

Today when I was practising my Healing Tigress exercises, during the bit where I was sitting in meditation thinking of myself as beautiful and practising gratitude, I was suddenly overwhelmed with a new realisation that I had not had before.

Last night when I was massaging my lover and bringing him to orgasm, I felt such joy being able to give him this experience, and then to cover him with a doona and let him drift off to sleep relaxed and satisfied. I felt so happy looking at him sleeping in my bed.

In one of the White Tigress books, it talks about the three qualities of a White Tigress - Charity, Compassion and Wisdom. Whenever I am doing the meditation bit of my Healing Tigress, I always try and picture these three qualities and picture that I will one day have these qualities.

Today, when I was up to that part of the practice, I was overwhelmed by a sense of understanding of what it was to be beautiful from the inside out. Although, of course, intellectually I've always understood beauty comes from the inside out, and that it also one of the things I picture when I meditate, today I felt what this meant. I thought back to last night and how I acted towards my lover with charity - to give for the pure act of giving itself, to give without expecting anything in return, and to treasure so much the act of giving itself. I was overwhelmed that for a short time I was able to practice one of the qualities of a Tigress that made her beautiful from the inside out. And I felt so appreciative and grateful that my lover had given me the opportunity to practice this. It was strange but I was on the verge of (happy) tears throughout my whole meditation having realised that. That for a moment, I was beautiful from the inside out - which is so much more powerful and beautiful then just being beautiful on the outside.

The Passionate Handjob

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A Tigress in Flight!

I have booked flights to go to the USA to meet with HL.

WOW! It is like it's really real now. 

I had some frequent flyer points that I was able to use to book the flights but it didn't cover the taxes so the flights still ended up costing over $800... which is not too bad because I didn't have to pay for the actual flight itself.

I will also need to pay for accommodation, food, and the teachings themselves, so it will all add up to a couple of thousand! It's a lot considering I'm on a student income but hopefully I will learn what I need to learn to start my first three years of practice from this trip.

I am very excited and look forward to everything that I will learn. 

HL and another Tigress will be teaching me the Oral and Manual stimulation techniques, Revitalising the Dragon and the Three Oral Treasures. I would love to learn everything that a Tigress traditionally learnt during her Suckling Tigress stage but unfortunately I don't have the funds to do so. I will need to learn everything later, though, if I want to teach other Tigresses in the future. When I return to full-time work after my studies that will give me the finances to undertake the rest of the teachings.

It seems like a lot to learn in a short period of time! I guess traditionally Suckling Tigresses would have been learning from their teacher every day, whereas so much needs to be taught to me in the two weeks that I will be in the States.

It will be amazing though and I very much looked forward to coming back filled with knowledge :)

My lover has suggested doing some preparation before I go there, like learning the basics such as the meridian system which I think is a very good idea. I will ask him to bring me some books so I can learn from them. He is an amazing man... it's like he's become my second teacher in many ways!

Stop Sucking My Qi!

Yesterday, after I finished giving my lover oral sex and he had ejaculated on my face, I was practising inhaling and visualising a green vapour filling my brain and he looked down at me and said "Stop sucking my qi!"

Haha!

It was funny :D

My pulsating vagina

I have been doing my Jade Stem exercises for a few weeks now and they've been going really well.

I do really enjoy doing them, although they are a bit more work because I need to clean my Jade Stem afterwards!

I have been practising 'Opening the Mysterious Door', which I've talked about in a previous blog as giving me really intense orgasms.

But recently there has been another amazing effect... my vagina contracts all on its own!

Every time I do one set of the sequence of movements and breathing that I need to do and then rest before doing another set, I've notice that my vaginal walls contract in a strong and rhythmic way, a little bit like when I'm drawing up my perinium - only my vagina is doing it on it's own!

I tried to play with the contractions and stop them and delay them etc. but my vagina just kept doing them at it's own accord.

It's really really cool cos it's like my vagina is exercising itself and I need to put no effort it!

I hope that it will help tighten up my vagina.

Also, I spoke to HL about the many orgasms and he said that I don't need to end with an orgasm every time, only when I feel like it, which is good.

I haven't tried the Sleeping Immortaless yet as I want to get a jade stem made out real jade. I don't want to use the one I have now as it's still a bit big even though it's the smallest one I could find and I don't like the idea of sleeping with rubber chemicals inside me. I also haven't finished setting up my shrine which I want to finish soon too!

Overall, the exercises are going really well though and I look forward to the experiences and effects that they will bring me.

My White Tigress Schedule

Now that I have a few exercises to do for my Tigress practice, I decided to create myself a little timetable with all my exercises for the week. I've also decided to keep a log of the exercises I actually end up doing. I didn't want to inadvertenly do some exercises more than others because I enjoyed them more, and I wanted to know how many I actually do a week.

I sent my timetable to HL and he said it looked like a good plan considering I also have study and work in my life. I seem to be going okay so far, keeping up with my schedule and making minor variations as I go along. I am aiming to do each exercise at least 3 times a week. Back in the old days, when Tigresses were able to devote all of their time to their practices, I image that Tigresses would have done most of them daily.

Keeping up with my exercises hasn't been difficult at all as I really look forward to doing them every day and feel 'incomplete' when I haven't gotten around to them. I find such peace, enjoyment and contentment in them. They are one of the few times in my day when I can sit down and be calm, and not be running around stressed and with so many things to do. I can also feel the effect of them, slight but powerful, in my body and in my spirit.

There are still more practices to learn though, so I will need to incorporate these new ones into my daily schedule as I learn them. There's a lot to do to become a Tigress!

Too many orgasms!

I have been having so many orgasms lately!


Well, many more than I'm normally used to.


I've been practising my Jade Stem exercises for a few weeks now, some of which can end in orgasm, as well as bringing myself to orgasm at other times too, mainly when I'm having insomnia and I can't sleep. Then the other night my lover came over and gave me three orgasms. I'm so tired now!! I'm all orgasmed out!


HL told me that orgasms are healthy for women and having them daily is fine. They help stimulate hormones and other good things for women.


It is great to have a new understanding of sexuality, one that embraces female pleasure, connects the physical to the spiritual and the physical to the restorative, and one that is open and comfortable with human sexuality as one of the most basic and most important aspect of ourselves.


But, yes, I'm certainly not used to this many number of orgasms!