My Shrine and Meditation Table

Today I went to IKEA and bought a little table to set up my meditation stuff and my shrine. I also got a little blue candle for the shrine and am hoping to get a few more things, like fake flowers or potpourri. And I got some little blue towels as the lubricant I used for the Jade Stem exercises can leave a bit of a mess. The table I got was actually meant to be a tv stand but it works perfectly and is small enough for me to sit in front of cross legged and not have it tower over me. I’m hoping to get a cloth to cover the table too.

It looks so much neater and is such a nicer place to do my practices. I can’t wait to finish my shrine and have everything set up nicely.

The Penis Is Too Big!

My lover’s penis cast has turned out to be too big for my Jade Stem exercises, so today I went back to Sexyland and bought the smallest dildo that they had! 

I was a little bit disappointed as it is not skin colour but a see through light blue colour so it is less realistic. But the rubber is such good quality and very soft and comfortable. It smells hard core though! But it will give me a more comfortable practice, so that is good.

My Jade Stem exercises

On Monday I was taught the Jade Stem exercises. There were four exercises I was taught.

I have tried two of the exercises. They were both amazing. One of them (Opening the Mysterious Door) gave me an incredibly intense orgasm. It was so good!

The other one (Jade Maiden Gazes on the DragonHead) gave me such a feeling of excitement yet peace and contentment at the same time. It was really amazing.

I am really looking forward to practicing them more and practicing them regularly and seeing the changes that will happen in me physically and psychologically. I can already see that these are very powerful exercises.

I was thinking that the exercise I’m doing would to most people seem absolutely strange and mind-boggling but to me, they seem so naturally and I feel so at ease with them, like they are something I have always done, or something I did in a past life, or something that I was meant to do in this life. I look forward to them everyday and my day feels more complete when I have time to practise. I am very much looking forward to becoming more and more of a Tigress everyday.

Green Mist Filling My Mind

Today when I did the Bao Yi meditation, a strange thing happened. While I was holding the image in my mind, my vision just filled with this green misty haze. It floated in front of the image, although I could still see the image through it. I tried to shoo it away but it just stayed there. So I just hung out and watched it and let it float around in my field of vision. Then after a while it disappeared and the image was back to normal.

It was a very cool experience to have and nice to have some ‘affirmation’, so to speak, that my dedication to the practice is evolving or having some sort of impact.

The finer points of the Healing Tigress exercises

Today I was lucky enough to have another Tigress go over the Healing Tigress exercises with me.

I have already been able to learn the basics of the exercises from the DVD but it was really good to go through them with another Tigress and for her to teach me the finer details. I basically showed her what I have been doing and she helped correct my technique.

To practice them properly we both had to take off our tops and bras. So there I was, video chatting with another woman on the other side of the world, both topless and massaging our breasts!

It was very, very good though, and strangely felt so normal. I was very comfortable doing this with her, and she was so relaxed and friendly.

What I learnt most from today’s session, I think, was focus. To really focus on building up the qi in my hands, to focus on the qi on my hands moving into my breasts, and to really focus on the exercise that I’m doing and every movement and every breath. Before I guess it was getting a bit routine and I was zoning in and out a bit and doing it a bit on auto-pilot. But now, returning to the exercises, I am doing them with much more attention, remaining in the moment, and appreciating the amazing practice that I have been taught and have the privilege to undertake.

It was a great session with her and so nice to talk to another Tigress.

Penis Cast!

Today I made a cast of my lover’s penis!

We went to Sexyland about bought a penis casting kit called “Create-a-Willy”.

It was quite difficult as we had to get the timing and temperature of everything absolutely perfect for the mould to work. We also didn’t think it through before starting and ending up making an absolute mess of mould filling spilling all over his pants and the floor!

But it worked!! It was so amazing. I am very impressed with the casting… you can see his folds of skin, urethra opening, blood vessels, even the texture on his skin… it was a very accurate replica!

I’m so happy to have my jade stem now so I can start my jade stem exercises. I’m also really happy to have a little piece of my lover for the future when he goes away to his temple!